Many Road Works - Inner World

Many roads work for you when you believe they do, but which one is the right one for you? When I was recovering from my heartache, I could not find a way to get back on track. I was swirling up and down, looking for many roads and many directions to relieve the pain and to hide from the truth that I was literally hiding from myself. Each of us has a different approach to life and different beliefs and structures. Mine was beating myself up for an "unfulfilled dream" of getting married. The ONE who I thought was the ONE was the total opposite of my inner world – my  mirror. Unfortunately, the limiting beliefs and the trauma were kicking in and screaming - no, I did not have time to listen to anyone, not even myself. I was constantly asking myself what did I do wrong? Why am I not good enough? During that time, I gave so much of my power away. I was not living, I was surviving, to be honest. The life I always wanted.

It felt like my life had crumbled like a house of cards. I searched in many directions but could not find a happy place or happiness. This man taught me a valuable lesson in self-love. He offered me a chance for a new life, a new me. However, did I see it that way? No, I was deeply attached to my own desires and stubbornness, restricting myself from blessings, help, and abundance. I chose to dwell in my own darkness, keeping it to myself while pretending to be okay on the outside. When I finally acknowledged that I needed to break free from this life of sacrifice, it was not easy. I had grown accustomed to the darkness, enduring mistreatment and abuse.

It took time for me to start trusting myself, as I had been blaming myself for not being good enough or not seeing the truth. I allowed myself to begin uncovering my wounds and facing them head-on, much like a surgeon on an operating table. I invite you to go deep within yourself and confront your inner struggles with complete honesty, regardless of the emotions you may be experiencing.

We are here creating experience and suppressing these feelings can lead to deeper wounds. Remember, you are the captain of your own ship, the commander in chief of your life. If you resonate with my story and would like to explore more about yourself, please do not hesitate to connect with me. Allow yourself to experience the POWER of I AM all that IS. Infinite possibilities.